Damn Diz Life!! Why Me????!!!!

i hope oneday GOD will fullfilled my dreams to come true.. ireally want it to be a real come true now... its really boring if we with sumone that didn't understand us well... well, i didn't meant to anyone, but seperti pepatah melayu: 'siapa makan cili dye terasa pedas".. dream by dream that i want had been destroy by my own frenz and i've live to donot hurting them to long, and when i hurt my own frenz, i feel like tore off my own heart.. stupid right??? but that's me.... when i feel want to take revenge to the people, there will sumone will keep off with me... i always think bout them, but when it takes to my turn, i was really hoping that they will always think like i think bout them.. but hampeh!!! it feels like i dun wanna cloze to anyone in my life... my life if i flashback to the past, its really fun and annoying! so the last of my hope is i wanna be a person that not so cloze to them but try to understand them well... clozer make suffer!! until now i felt what i've done wrong to them... its so hard to erase that.... Ya Allah... guide my path to the right path n follow Your path...